Cuba

Hello all! Sincerest apologies for the delay, my three days in NYC were booked for family time and laundry before the 18 hour journey to Cape Town. I feel relaxed here in South Africa, I think partially because of some of the lessons I picked up in Cuba, on some of the images of poverty gleaned from our three weeks exploring the outskirts of Trinidad and Havana, and of the time spent away from home. The major issues here seem more similar to those of the US rather than those in Cuba, of massive wealth inequality and the consolidation of power into the hands of those rich few. A burgeoning problem for our southern neighbors. Though a police state, I felt there was a stronger disconnect between our casa owners and tourist industry folk with the average Cuban than between the drunk, salsa dancing cops and the people they enforced. The beginnings of privatization are creating some of the same class distinctions we see in other free-market societies yet on a smaller level. This was the most surprising aspect of Cuba, actually. It was in the little improvements, gifts from other travelers, fresh paint as well as some serious things like patched roofs and decent plumbing that divided neighborhoods. The few times I felt like I was really being scammed there, being led into a dark alleys for cheap goods or up a shoddy staircase for my golden cigars… I knew the cash would be circulated in those peripheral places and that maybe some of these lessons could be translated into solutions later on. Our weeks there and my few days here in S.A. have made me think a lot about how problems are sometimes replicated throughout history, they’ve made me question revolution and the roles of culture in times of political turmoil or suffering. Anyway, here are some of my notes on the Cuban trip:

Havana was the crumbling infrastructure of the colonial era reborn in the 50s and frozen there in time. Viva la revolución… Rubble, chicken bones and coconuts came tumbling off the rooftops in what felt like an endless party. Són, rhumba, raggaeton and hip hop came pouring out of cheap speakers on every street corner. There was energy in those ruins. People walked casino salsa, whistled and hollered. Spies tucked themselves in alleyways and the constant hustle stripped me of my pesos in less than a week. The two currency system does a really good job at directing us tourists on specific routes within the country, where CUCs are all that you have and their value is only accepted in certain stores (as opposed to the national currency). This becomes evident as you move outside of Havana and travel further east on the island. In Trinidad I came to realize how significant this barrier was, on how difficult it is to communicate given the preventative measures the government enforces upon its people. A card–a license–is given to those that work in the industry and that allows for conversation with foreigners. Discussions on politics become difficult to broach and nearly impossible given the law. I started feeling paranoia creep in and became more shocked by this aspect of control than by the dead dogs on the side of the highway or the one floating in the Cienfuegos bay (its sad bloated body in the shadow of a sparkling, Canadian cruise). It really started to get to me. Another American called me out in a coffee shop one day to his Cuban tour guide as a “definite supporter of the revolution… look at that nose ring and his tattoos!” I responded by drawing a crudely shaped penis and quickly flashed my notebook before fleeing the scene. I feel like a lot of non academics in the States try to understand Cuba in this way, through bold assumptions and an ahistorical logic. People neglect some of the ideals expressed by the younger Castro and Guevara in order to maintain their anti-communism and nationalistic upbringings. Our current president’s reversal of Obama’s attempt at reconnecting the two nations is a horribly misguided approach and confirmation of this mindset. Cuban domestic policies are certainly not what we should accept in the States today but global communication is of the utmost importance. And I made some interesting connections that showed a certain resistance to this aspect of Cuban governance. For instance, while spending a week returning to the same eatery, night after night trying to improve my Spanish with the same set of employee/residents (most private businesses are startups in the home), and eating the same cheap food and on-the-house bananas, I made an important discovery: pornography. One of the people I met at the eatery beckoned me over one night to look at his cellphone, he was a Cuban guy with connections in Australia (he told me he could never move there because of the gun violence and prejudice against his skin) and he was asking if I liked the ladies. He pulled up some b-rated porno and gave me a big smile but upon realizing my discomfort he got one of the servers over and the two of them sat gazing into the screen. Eventually another two guys stumbled in the doorway and plopped down for the show! Digitized sex is banned in Cuba and with the spotty wifi its not an easy feat to acquire it. People smuggle porn in on USB drives from other parts of the world. Along with music, movies and TV shows, these portable catalogues are black market commodities. They quietly chip away at the hegemony of state and the borders that confine the Cuban people.

Happy Cuban Tourist

I think it was the happiest I’ve ever been in my life, she said, just loud enough to be heard over the music while the three of us held hands in the corner of the party. We didn’t stand side by side, but in an unbroken circle. So that probably looked weird, but I wouldn’t register that until later. In that moment, all I could think about was whether or not I agreed with her.

We got home from Cuba about two weeks ago, two professors and the six students who ended up attending the trip. And, although we had been in the same class all semester, to learn about Cuba, none of us had spoken to each other. So when our professor asked what we wanted to get out of the trip I was intrigued to here everyones answer, even mine. A few mentioned practicing some Spanish, others wanted to get to know the locals, most talked about absorbing the culture. I think I said something about how I wanted to see the art in Cuba, and that’s not untrue. I love art and I was excited to see what Cuba had to offer in that regard. Was it the main reason I signed up? Probably not.

If I’m honest, I wanted to go to Cuba mainly as a distraction from my life. I’ll leave my circumstances at that point up to your imagination, but just remember that the short and cold days of Maine winter was already the backdrop. Which isn’t to say I wasn’t curious to learn about Cuba. I truly wanted first-hand experiences of the country I had learned so much about over the semester. In fact, I knew that the learning and the newness is what would distract me. But yes, distraction is what I wanted above anything else.

So what type of distracting things did I learn about Cuba that I couldn’t get from the textbooks? It’s hard to form any sort of conclusions. It’s hard because we were just tourists in their world. Spoiled Americans who had experiences like riding horses to waterfalls and snorkeling on the beach. They were amazing, but that’s not anyones real life. If I were to tell you what Cuba really is, or what Cuba is really about I would feel like a man trying to teach a women’s studies class, and no one wants that. So, I just want to tell you a few things that happened, and let you decide what you think they mean, and maybe tell me cause I’m still unsure.

1. No matter where I was in Havana or Trinidad, if I looked around the street, up in a balcony, or through the slits of a window, there was always someone watching me. Which sounds eerie, but the stares didn’t feel at all hostile and I somehow don’t have that sense that people often talk about, where they can feel someone watching them. So I only noticed when I looked for them. It was often an old lady, sometimes children or a middle aged man. It felt like they were all waiting for something. When I see people in the streets of cities in the United States, everyone always has a place to be. In Cuba there are more people who are just there, doing nothing in particular but indulging their curiosity on whoever walks by.

2. We stayed in local families homes, and they treated us like family. Talking to our host, Carmen, you’d think we were her nieces. They didn’t feel any of the awkward social barriers that we do in the United States. They gave us advice, constant physical reassurance through a hand on the shoulder or hugs, and the home felt like a home.

3. We were able to befriend the kids who played on the street our house was on. There was two girls and maybe five boys, all between the ages of seven and twelve. They mainly raced each other down the small, cobble-stone street, so we did the count downs. Soon we were racing along side them. Later we would participate in a soccer game, boys verses girls, where a certain point at each end of the road meant one team or the other scored a goal. I’d rip my sandal open making a goal (totally worth it). One night they invited us to one of the boys birthday parties. Come back at midnight, they said, and we’ll sing him happy birthday. During the party we went with the kids to get pizza, right down the street. They vehemently insisted that we eat our pizza first, and that we also have some of their pizza. There were no parents around to prompt them to do this, they just did. Soon we were back on our street where we sang happy birthday in both English and Spanish while the oldest girl secretly tore up paper for confetti. During the closing note of our third rendition she threw it in the air. We all laughed together.

5. The cities are beautiful, but dilapidated. Before I actually saw them in person, and I had just seen photos, I would have described the cities as “forgotten during a ten year apocalypse, and only recently rediscovered”. Now that I’ve seen the cities in person, I’m not sure if that description fits. It doesn’t fit because in the pictures I saw there was no movement, no sound, no sense of smell, so I couldn’t feel how much the cities are teaming with life. There’s music coming from every other house, at any hour of the day. Many houses and buildings have been turned into restaurants and you can smell the food and hear the sound of conversations coming from the tables seated outside. This is definitely romanticizing it all, but to me it felt like everyone was so busy living that they just forgot to fix up the buildings for generations. In a few days I completely grew accustomed to the sidewalk holes, the balls of telephone wires atop each telephone pole, and the buildings with their chipped paint. It just felt like life’s backdrop, how it had always been and how it will always be. Though, again, I don’t have to live there all the time. We were told that often a building will simply collapse. One such incident killed four studying teenagers. So I’m sure the honeymoon period fades fast when you live their long-term. 4. It was probably one of the happiest times of my life (to shamelessly segue back to my original question).

I’m not sure what that says about me. Except, apparently I have the type of life you need a vacation from. And if that was the Happiest time I can remember, I’ve always had that type of life. Or maybe it was just the feeling of escaping winter for the sun. Who knows. I’ll work on it.

Photographing Cuban People

Coming into this trip I wanted to take portraits of people. I had only ever taken photos of my friends and family. I never took photos of strangers. But I wanted to challenge myself. I was unsure what the protocol was for taking pictures of people. I didn’t know how people would feel about having a stranger take a picture of them. I had to think about it from their perspective.

When I arrived in Trinidad, I noticed three kids sitting in a window. They sat there curiously watching us climb out of our cars and unload our oversized luggage. We lugged our suitcases across the cobblestone street onto the sidewalk. They watched us. I watched them too. I kept making eye contact with the girl. Eventually I walked over and say hi. I reached into my purse and pulled out three mints. I used the minimal Spanish I retained from high school to offer them to the kids. They understood my awkward Spanish. I introduced myself and then they did too. The girl, Luz Mary, spoke a bit of English. She explained that one boy is her brother and the other is a friend.

After chatting for a bit, I asked to take their picture. I wasn’t sure how to approach taking pictures of people, but it felt right to ask for permission.

They happily said yes.

The kids posed for the photo. I thanked them, said bye, and then walked back across the street where my group was. After I walked away another tourist walked by with his camera and took a photo of them. He must have seen me do it. But he didn’t ask them for permission. The way he photographed them was as if they were a display in a window. He didn’t say hello or even acknowledge them. And after he took the photo, he kept walking.


This bothered me. I didn’t want to be like that. I wanted to document Cuba and its people. But I wanted to do so respectfully. And, I needed to figure out how to do that.

Photographers are not invisible. They impact the moment they are capturing. This man was photographing the same people I did. But I imagine the photo was different due to the way he took it. He tried to take it in passing. He did not want to be a part of the moment. He wanted to capture them naturally, without disturbing them. But I feel like he was actually more invasive.

I used to think that a photographer could only capture a candid moment if they were removed from it. I thought that a photographer should be a fly on the wall who captures uninterrupted moments. Otherwise the photo would be insincere. But I don’t feel that way anymore. The relationship between a subject and photographer is important. Acknowledging the situation is powerful. I think it creates more genuine photos.

Here are some more of the photos I took during my time in Cuba:

Havana vs. Trinidad

The city of Havana is characterized by it’s old sports car taxis, it’s stark contrast of old, pre-revolution buildings and new, post-revolution buildings, and it’s stretch of concrete next to the ocean called El Malecon.  Compared to Trinidad, it’s loud and bright, sprawling across a huge area.  Trinidad feels much more like a small town, lacking the skyscrapers of Havana and crowded by horse buggies rather than sports cars.  There are little to no traffic lights on the cobble stone streets and the city seems more welcoming to tourists.  There are excursions to waterfalls and beaches on every street corner, hostels and casas up and down neighborhoods, and pop-up souvenir shops in new places every day.  However, because of the emphasis on tourism in Trinidad, things are also more expensive.  A meal of fried pork, rice, and salad in Havana for 5 CUC (about $5.65) would cost closer to 8 CUC (about $9.00).

Getting to Know Locals

The US and Cuba have a long history of tension-filled relations, so I wasn’t sure what to expect when going to a country not many Americans have been to.  Especially not being a fluent Spanish-speaker, I didn’t know how I would communicate with locals, but I was determined to get to know people around our casas.

In Trinidad, our casa was situated across the street from the home of Luz Mary (pictured above), one of the oldest neighborhood girls and clearly the leader of the group.  She could speak some English from lessons as school and loved to show us her photo albums and tell us about her family.  Many of the other neighborhood kids were her cousins or siblings, and she acted as a mother figure for them while they played outside, scolding them when they were mean to each other or telling them to go back inside when it became late.

We were lucky enough to be invited to her younger cousin Luis’s 8th birthday party one night.  The kids were planning on staying up until midnight so they could ring in Luis’s birthday with soda, pizza, and singing to him.  Luz Mary provided us with glasses and soda after we ventured out to buy pizza from street vendors, and we clinked our glasses to celebrate Luis.  He was a naturally shy kid but he wouldn’t stop smiling at the attention.  Luz Mary conducted us in singing to him, and threw homemade confetti as the crescendo to the song.

The day we left Trinidad, Luz Mary gifted us with beaded necklaces and waited for our taxi with us.  We were sad to say goodbye to her after seeing her every day for two weeks and playing soccer with her and her cousins.  We made sure to take plenty of pictures with her!

The other picture I included above is in Santa Clara.  While waiting for our taxi, an older man stopped by to chat with us.  Overall, Cubans were very friendly to us and just wanted to talk or hear about the US.  Many Cubans have family in the United States, mostly around the Florida area.  He asked to take pictures with us (after asking if I had a boyfriend) and grinned when we showed them to him.

One of my favorite parts of our trip was getting to know the locals and learning about their stories.  We made some great friends, which made it even harder to leave, but it just gives us another reason to go back.

Casino in Cuba

Screen Shot 2019-01-31 at 2.50.15 PM.pngOver the two weeks we spent in Trinidad, our group took four salsa dancing lessons with a professional instructor, Yusell Garcia. He teaches a version of Cuban salsa called “casino”, which is characterized by close partner dancing and connection maintenance (not letting go of one’s partner).
We started off basic: the front and back movements, side to side movements, crossing our feet behind each other, etc. Men always lead with their left foot, mirroring the women who lead with their right foot. As our lessons continued, Yusell added steps to our repertoire and included some spins and what seemed to us to be some pretty advanced moves. Each lesson we practiced with and without music, switched partners, and tried to move with the ease Yusell did. Following the steps was easy enough; it was the hip movement and attitude that were harder to emulate.

Besides the lessons, our group took to night clubs to practice our moves and I can’t help but think it was painfully obvious we were beginners. Many of the locals at the clubs were there every night and danced just as well as Yusell did.

One stereotype I had heard about Cuba was that men randomly grab you off the street to dance with you, something I hadn’t experienced in my time in Havana and Trinidad. In the salsa clubs, it was different. Men of all ages would ask us to dance with them. It seemed like no one was allowed to sit down at these clubs; there wasn’t a single song I sat out on.

All of the local men were amazing salsa dancers, whipping us across the dancefloor and spinning us until we were dizzy. Salsa is a social dance, so many Cubans have grown up dancing salsa and casino at parties and events. Boys also learn the female parts when they’re younger in order to better understand their job of “leading the dance”.

While I must have stepped on a million toes during my salsa dancing with locals, they never became impatient or aggravated, a testament to the nature of salsa dancing: it’s not necessarily just about getting the steps down. It’s about having a good time and connecting with others.

January 7–Needlework

El Museo Historico Municipal in Trinidad is housed in the Palacio Cantero, an enormous yellow house in the center of town, built in the 1830s by a slave-owning sugar baron. Most of Trinidad’s wealth and many of its historic structures bear a direct relationship to the plantation past–and slavery persisted in Cuba until 1886.  Among the exhibits are implements for subjecting human beings in bondage, handwritten accounts of an uprising by slaves, and a photo of the whipping of one slave.

And with parallel irony, the furnishings of the museum are genteel. There is a glass case of taxidermied birds, numerous intricate chandeliers and wooden settees (not to be sat on), and a piano. Behind the piano I met the first of several local women doing needlework and selling their products.

I asked Norelía and Evy where they each learned the techniques they practiced, and each one mentioned mother, grandmother, and “antepasados”–ancestors. Not as complicated as the one example of 19th-century table linen in the museum, which Norelía explained would have been part of a wedding trousseau, their work was beautiful and irresistible to a traveler with CUCs to spend.

Cuban Ceramics

Cuban ceramics mostly seem to be bright and colorful, organic in design, and often glazed in a semi-glossy coat. We visited a ceramic shop on the outskirts of Trinidad where they make and sell ceramic pieces like vases and ashtrays. An older man sat at the throwing wheel with a cigarette in hand, placed a chunk of white clay onto the wheel, and went to work.
The process starts with the collection and mixing of the clay in the back of the studio in 3 large troughs. I was showed how the dry material is mixed with water to create a workable consistency. A garden rake is used to stir the trough. Next, the clay is laid out and allowed to dry just a bit in the next trough and then transported to a small, dark shed where it is covered and waits until an artist takes it to the wheel.
At the wheel in the front of the studio, the older man used a large chunk to create multiple smaller pieces, shaping the clay into a cone on the wheel and using the top point as his clay to create with. I watched as he molded a small bowl, pulling the clay out and in and occasionally dipping his hands in a water to shape with. After each piece was finished, he cut them off the larger piece of clay with a wire and placed them on a board, ready to dry out.
After the drying process, the pieces are loaded into brick, open air kilns on shelves above the flames. Typically pieces stay firing in the kiln for hours, but because the kiln uses direct heat from fire and is harder to regulate, these times vary.

After firing, the pieces are either left in their natural color or glazed/painted and put out on display for customers to browse and buy. Because the wheel is in the front of the shop, customers are also able to see where their purchases come from and watch the creation process occur, an experience that unique to the artistic process.

Haggling for Cigars

For two days every month, the Cuban government provides families within cooperatives cigars to sell to make some extra cash. On New Year’s Eve, the locals were selling the cigars for half off, so some of us students explored central Havana in search of the cheapest cigars. We met a Cuban percussion teacher named Roberto who took us under his wing and showed us the neighborhood where the cooperative is held. He gave us a quick pep talk, encouraging us to haggle with the sellers in order to bring down the prices. “Just look relaxed,” he told us.

When we entered the neighborhood, there were no signs advertising cigars, just seller standing in their doorways and waiting for us to approach. Roberto pointed out a young man, telling us to go talk to him. His name was Carlos and he led us up a narrow flight of stairs to a small room in his apartment with cedar cigar boxes. He let us smell the cigars, showing us how to roll them between our fingers to see if anything fell out, the sign of a bad cigar.

The cigars were more expensive than I had thought, up to $200 for a box of twenty. Sean managed to haggle, bringing the price down for $130 for 20 cigars and a picture of the room. Roberto was very proud and claimed that Sean was a better bargainer he was.

The cigars themselves weren’t bad; they were almost chocolatey in taste. Later on we all shared one around the casa porch, like many Cubans do.

Later on in our trip, once we got to Trinidad, we ended up finding packages of 20 cigars for 25 CUC and they tasted just about the same, but at least we got an interesting haggling lesson from our cooperative adventure.